Anyways, most days, I love living in a city. More jobs, more shopping opportunities, more eating opportunities, 24 hour gas stations, you know, the finer things in life. Then fall comes, and I always get super home sick! I don't know why, but every year, as soon as there is a chill in the night air, I want to go running back home, and it usually takes me a month or two to get out of my funk. Probably because besides my job, there isn't much to keep me here.
Sure, Fat Dad's family is here, and he would soooo not join me on my escape. He is frightened of Lanark. He thinks he is the darkest skin toned person to ever set foot within the "city" limits. I try to tell him he's not the first black person a white girl from Lanark has ever dated, but after 11 years, he still refuses to believe me!
This year, my son got into the school of my dreams, so I have more keeping me here than ever before. I love my small town school, but, like JJ, I was always too smart for my own good. When I was telling my daddy about the school JJ will be going to he curled his lip to something unconventional, and he asked me if I was sure he would be OK there. I assured him he would be better than OK, and then I put it in terms he could understand. I told him how I was the smart kid in class who had to learn at the same pace as the kid who drooled on himself... We are 30, and he still drools! As soon as I said that, my dad smiled, and remembered that I was the daughter who he has always come to for advice, and I could see it set in that he knew I made the right, educated choice.
I love my daddy. He is my step dad, but has always been my daddy. When I was going through my teenage angst, he was my voice of reason. It was always the two of us having an intelligent conversation while the rest of our family did I don't even know what in the background. The only time we haven't totally seen eye to eye was Fat Dad. I was so disappointed that he couldn't see past the color of his skin. It took him probably 5 years to see things through my eyes. It took him until his brother died to realize he didn't want to miss any more of my life. It took my cousins saying horrible things about Fat Dad for my daddy to come to my rescue.
Tonight as I sat outside trying to see any stars in the sky let alone a shower, this is what I was supposed to see... this is what I would have seen in Lanark. I remembered trying to find constellations in the sky when I was younger, and being able to see so many stars there was no way to count them. Tonight, I could count them : ( There might have been 15!!!
One of my biggest dreams for our family right now, is to find a house still in the city, but far enough out of town that we can see more than 15 stars! Close enough for pizza delivery, but far enough to see a corn field. I am thankful to have a roof over our heads, and for everything we have inside of this roof, but I would love for my kids to get at least a little version of the way their mom grew up. We take plenty of trips to grandmas where they get to sleep in the house I grew up in, but weekend trips and everyday life are totally different! Every time we talk about going to Grandma Deb's AL says piggy stinky, and crinkles her little nose as if she can smell them already : ) She really is too cute for her own good!
Funny part is is when I lived in my small town, for the most part, I hated it! I always wished I lived in a city. Chicago was where I wanted to live. Then California, but I think that one was brought on by a boy I was in love with. That one still has a piece of my soul... not the boy, California...well, maybe the boy too : ) One of my old roommates was from there, and we went to visit her grandma, and I have never felt more at home! The lifestyle fit the stage of life I was in so perfectly. If I went today, it might not feel the same, but then, it was a dream come true.
I guess what I'm trying to say is that the grass is always greener, and if I lived in my small town again, I might go outside, and long for my city life. Now that I'm a mom, my home is wherever my family is, and right now, that is here, and I will make the best of it.
Where is your dream living location??? Are you a small town girl or a city diva??? Did you get to see the meteor shower???